finally..yea, FINALLY....
everybody wrote that word on my wall...
OMG......
i saw a link on vanessa's there, titled "do people secretly hate you.?" or so...
then, i get my result...
My result:
Self Doubter
The question is-do you really even like yourself? Other people would like to get to know you more but your lack of self confidence can get in the way. Get out there!
swt...
quite true izzit?
i think it is...
everytime i felt unconfortable that i think who and who is not that like me.....
or even hate me....
but they're not actually...
why?
coz im not confidence?
sort of...i think.....
i hope everyone in the world will like me more, but i don't even like myself....
so, that's impossible..
moreover, there'll always be someone in the world that don't like you...
this is sure.....
but........
everytime, i'll be the listener when my friends are talking, chatting, bluffing, playing, ...
i like to be in that role...
but sometimes, i don't like it at all, i could feel like...
i'd been forgotten, i can't mix with them....
but, whenever there're someone else told me that kind of ...secret..., i'll ask them to join, just sit there, sure they can be part of the topic or what......
but, when the problem dropped back to myself here......i realised that i can't..
now i know why they're prefer to leave the place, than trying to ..join them......
i'm stupid, yea, maybe i'm crazy too...
maybe you'll say i think too much, yea, i admit, but then?
i can't stop thinking that way.!!!
that's a habit i think..
a WORST habit i hope i never have..
everytime, when i saw ..some of my friends..., i'm wondering....
why they can just as happy as a kid, play as fun as they can?
i hope i'm that kind of person.!!!
i want to be one of them.!!!!
i would like to join them more, but on the other side, i scare...
i always thinking bout, how if ALL of my friends don't like me?
or they're just acting friendly infront of me?!!
coz i feel myself is....soo.....weird, can't be trusted, selfish, somemore, 我觉得我很假.....
**my eng too bad, so i just manage to write it in chinese...**
everytime we chatting around, there'll be some topic like "which kind of person that you don't like.?", or "how do you think/ do you like that XXX?"
we're quite "enjoy" our topic..**coz
but somehow, everytime after we end that topic, i'll start thinking something like....is XXY or XYX or YXX hate/ don't like me?
last time, before my A-Level course started, i "felt" KS ..err...**let use the word 'hate' for this kind of situation ba..** hate me....
for almost one year or more....lolz
then...well, honestly, i do felt that kind of feeling all the time..
and almost everyone of my friends or even those who're not that closed to me, i'll think of the same way....
i'll feel something like.....
they hate me.!!
then i can 'down' for few days....or more.........
why.?
Why.?
WHY.?!!!!
who can help me?
can someone save me?
i don't think so, there're just one person, me, myself, can help me......
too long...continue next post ba...?
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