to my beloved uncle..

miss my uncle lately...
he stay at US with his family now....
long time no see them le...that's why i miss him....


beside of this, my mum said something that make me think of him actually..

my bro is going to UK end of this month, for his degree cert...
it takes only 3 months..

then my mum say she's not that rest assured(?) although it's only 3 months...
then she say, that time they're planing and discussing whether wanna send me to US for my degree courses or not, and i stay in M'sia still...finally...
she lagi berat hati.....lolz

and this remind me what my mum said last time...
she said:" actually your uncle hope you can study there, because when you're there, we're connected, at least, for we two family....

"lets see, if i'm not going there, or anyone else in our family, all of us is here but my uncle 4-members family is the only one at oversea....

"he can call us once a week or more, but we're not going US that ofthen for sure, the air tickets is expensive, the phone call to oversea is expensive, and so on...

"which means, we might getting far and far away, not the distance we can counted, but the connection within our heart, our blood..."

alright, the last one is i added in de....but it's true waat..
don't you think so.?

if one of us is there, maybe the one's family members will plan to go there more often, for their children, for their brother......

but right now, just they're there, when he ask us to go there, we need to plan...well, those parent, and those got job....need to ask for holidays, and more....

but if...like ..i'm there, my mum will plan to go there as often as she can whenever she wants to, no matter how much holiday leaves she left....izzit?

i think, "yes"..

and the most important thing, he did care me sssooooo much since i was a baby....
i always thinking like....what can i do to......you know? erm..just like...respond his loves to me...
and, i still get these worst academic result...
WTH.............
i hate myself for this....

disappointed my parent, my uncle, and myself.!!!!!!!!!
WTH.!!!!!!!!!!!

and, what i wanna say is...
"sorry", and
"i love you guys~~~~"
"i'll try my best in everything and trust me please although i said this manytimes before but i never did it...or never make it for.......well...i never.....坚持...but, i will try...no matter for how manytimes...."

"GAMBATE.!!!!!!!!!!!"




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